Making Decisions
Been thinking about what happened last week - and am still a little peeved.
I have found out who started this whole mess - and I am surprised that the couple still zeroed in on me - they didn't even bother to consider those that they had told - just plain out and out decided it was me because I hang around with that person a lot. *sigh*
Now that I know, I have decided not to tell the couple who that person was - it's NO LONGER their business anymore, after what they did to me last week.
I have had enough of deaf high school drama - that is exactly what it was like. It was like a bunch of high school students ganging up on each other, not willing to listen to anyone's side, but insisting that they were right to do this and that.
In fact, I do know that one of the people has a problem with getting involved in other peoples' businesses, but when other people gets involved in HER OWN business, she gets VERY ANGRY and tells them to BUTT OUT of her business, as it's none of theirs! Whoa... what about you, girlie? You don't want us to get involved in your business, that's good and fine, but we WANT YOU to get YOUR BUTT out of our own businesses! We already know that she's not very much liked here in St. Louis, because of her attitude and abusive manners.
*sigh*
It's too bad that it all came down to this - but it's what happened.
Reading, Scrapping, Stamping...
Been reading up a perfect storm - now am on THE CHOCOLATE MOUSE TRAP by Joanna Carl - cute mystery!
Been doing time reports - it gets boring though...doing the same thing over and over, day after day. It's the same thing with the accounts payable, altough it's a break from the same old rut.
Last weekend was OK - picked Lisa D from home Friday night, and then on Saturday, we went to Fulton, MO for a MoAD board/committee meeting at Missouri School for the Deaf. The Scout cabin looks better than ever - there's been a lot of improvements done since the last time I saw it.
However, the meeting dragged on and on - the president kept letting the meeting break down into long-winded discussions about one subject, then another, then another... we didn't get to leave until about 4:30 p.m. and even then, the meeting wasn't over!! *smh*
We got back to St. Louis at around 545 p.m., and then we dashed through the house, getting what we needed - and then to Jenifer's home for a stamping/scrapbooking night! Now, that was LOTS of fun!!! Jenifer, Jens, Cass, Lisa D and I laughed, joked and told stories while we worked on our projects ~ and what projects they were!!!
We got home LATE - and went to bed even LATER.
Sunday, we got up ... unwillingly. Jens went to softball practice, and I took Lisa D home and then stopped by my parents home to drop off Dad's birthday gift and to pick up some clothing I had forgotten all about ALL WINTER. UGH.
Now it's Tuesday... *groaning.*
Growling At The State Of The World Today
I am soooo damn frustrated ~ I feel like I'm caught between four feuding people. I can see their sides to the same sordid scandal, but on the other hand I'm on NO ONE's side at all! I mean ~ look at this way ~ I've gotten bit on my ass so many times in the last two days, I'm surprised it's not totally gone or black and blue! I've been blamed several days for 'openeing my big mouth,' when I didn't even freaking tell anyone about the whole frigging damn business??? I mean, who even in the heck cares? I'm just here to listen, and allow some people vent off their frustration at the big, cruel, sado~masocistic world, and then leave it at that.
What I know would really get a lot of peoples' knickers into a big twisted mass of shyt hitting the fan, that's for sure, but why should I even say anything??? I don't need to, that's for mofo sure!
I just don't get the idea ~ why does it give some sickos such pleasure in mouthing off their so~called friends' secrets ~ unless it gives them some preverted pleasure in getting their kicks off? It sucks big time, that's what ~ especially when I get the fookin sicko blame for this frickin puta mess!
I tell you ~ friendships are more important to me than telling everyone's business to every Jack or Jill that comes along ~ friendships are meant to be cherished and trasured like fine gems ~ because friends are like fine crystal ~ once a crystal is broken, you can't get it back together. However, it does seem that some peepz haven't learned that one simple lesson. Fook that.
I'm glad I have REAL friends that takes the time to ask AND listen before jumping down my throat, slinging accussations left and right, shooting to kill first BEFORE asking questions!
Jayzyz! What a stinky two days it's been!
Books
Am reading CHERRY CHEESECAKE MURDER by Joanne Fluke...heh heh.
Got a doctor appointment at 3:20 p.m. today - UGH.
All Thought Out - I Think Not!
Whew - another busy weekend is over.
Friday night, Kitty dropped Lisa D and Lexi off at my home for the weekend - talked a while before leaving.
Saturday, we went to Archiver's because I was looking for a large flower punch, and finally found it...grabbed the LAST one!! Got some other things, too.
Then we went to GSLAD Hall for a meeting - what a scene. Too much confusion, too much drama...*smh*...nothing new!
Sunday, we went to Jenifer B's home for Stamp Night...and had a good time, but Jens had to go to softball practice, so she wasn't able to go with us three. Then I dropped the terrible twosome off, and finally got back together with Jens...heh heh.
At this time, we are trying to decide what to do next - Jens' parents want her to put her income tax refunds into her credit card balance, pay it off, and we would get the windows this fall...*sigh*...Jens was NOT happy about that, but is going along with her parents' wishes for this once. We just hope to get the basement completed as soon as possible, because we want to clean out the storage room and get it all organized before winter. We would also like to repaint the basement, so we can cover the scribblings left by the children who used to live there before Jens bought the house.
I do know that I will not be able to help for a while, as I need to pay off the cruise before June 1st and also get the insurance before March 31st...*sigh*. Then I need to save money for travel expenses and also for the wedding in July - urgh. I also want to get Gift repaired before next winter, too. She needs to have her bumper repaired and repainted and a new rocker panel put on...whew... about $800.00 worth of body work.
Hoo boy...so much to do - we also need to get siding and new insulation for the house, too. We would also love a new driveway, new sidewalks, a deck...but those are not high priortories at this time.
And so much drama is going on with my friends, which is making me worry about them - they have so much stress right now, and it's not good for them.
I just cant wait to go to Ohio this July - it will be good to see my friends there - havent seen them for a year now. And Jens will be with me, too!!!!
And I cant wait for the two weeks vacation coming up this fall too...
Doing Okay for Now
I'm doing ok for now - been struggling to get through my depression and overeating problems - but I know I'll make it out.
Got a busy weekend planned - two friends are coming over tonight to stay the weekend and then we will go to a meeting tomorrow night, and then Stamp Night on Sunday!
Will post more later.
Listening In Circles
Been doing a little journaling and checking over past notations... amazing on what some people come up with!
Also what's amazing is how long I don't hear from people... sometimes it takes AGES to get anything from them...and even then it's a Hello, How you doing, and So Long... bbllpptthh.
I must lead a boring life... work, argue with billers, laze about home, play on computer, go to meetings and parties... oh well.
Sorry if I don't advertise my sex life...but for your sake, I'll give you this tidbit. It's almost time for my montly red river week, ok?
BBLLPPTTHH.
Chris and Angela
Chris and Angela were married on Monday, March 5, 2007 in Alabama!
I'm sooo happy for her, her new husband, and her daughter, J!!!
Many best wishes and many years of happiness to the new couple!
Dancing Queen
This is one of my favorite songs - since I sang/signed it in a karakoe night... and all had fun with my comedic routine!
'Dancing Queen'
By ABBA
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen
Friday night and the lights are low
Looking out for the place to go
Where they play the right music, getting in the swing
You come in to look for a king
Anybody could be that guy
Night is young and the musics high
With a bit of rock music, everything is fine
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...
You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen
Youre a teaser, you turn em on
Leave them burning and then youre gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...
You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen
Today is Today
Ahh... Monday morning again.
I have been cleaning up the template to this blog - some links were out of date, and some had changed names. Also, got to add some new blogs...yahoo!!!
Now, it's work time here - time reports to go through. Already halfway through, though. . . heh heh.
Been reading S FOR SILENCE by Sue Grafton - she is a good writer, although I don't read her novels often. I'm more of a Patricia Cornwell and Kathy Reichs fan - along with a little Stephen King mixed here and there...LOL!!
Also trying to get through all the magazines that have been piling up for the last few months - kind of fell behind on my reading since then...oh well. At least I cut the pile down to half. It's been slow going, though.
Am trying to improve on my daily journals - have jotted here and there, but not enough to make an impact yet. OMG - just realized that I missed two days on my WW food journal!! That is not freakin' good!!! *sigh*
Also jotting into my daily notes and will be in my 2007 journal soon.
Relationships
I had posted that in a forum - and I thought it was pretty good, and wanted to save it in my blog. So here it is...in its entirety.
You know - after all the excitement here on AD and in real life (
IRL), I got to thinking...
Relationships can seem complicated, but can also be very simplistic - yet there are so many factors that can make or break a relationship. In a way, it's pretty sad.
I will do it this way - when I say partner, I mean any of these: spouse (husband or wife), lover (same-sex) and boyfriend/girlfriend.
Now - over the years, I've had quite a few partners - some of which I have remained friends with (2 are very close), some I'm cordial with and chat whenever I see them, and then there are two that I do not want to have any contact with.
In these relationships, I have had people warning me, telling me things - beware of this, beware of that, you know what, you have to know this, you better watch for that, and all that jazz... and I've had people telling my partners about my past, giving them warnings, telling them things about me...
Recently, there was a bit of a drama here
IRL - a good friend of mine went into a new relationship recently - and yes, you guessed it... quite a few people went after her partner, telling her about my friend's past - and I can tell you, no, they were NOT nice about it... in other words, they really stabbed my good friend and brought up a lot of her past issues. The new partner broke it off, and cited these sources as the reason why... of course, my friend got very upset and wanted to know why people had to bring the past up. Of course, I had no ready answer for that, but luckily, this new partner contacted me and I was able to tell her the truth - many of the 'facts' she had heard were very skewed and not all true - I was able to straighten some things out and contacted my good friend about what was going on. Now, they are both talking, and taking it easy - and I am relieved about that.
I know of another 'drama' that is still on-going - and I am sad about it... because this is another 'drama' that not need have happened, either. In this, I know that one person was 'very upset' about an ex-friend hooking up with the first person's EX-partner. Please understand me, this happened AFTER they broke up. In this, she has made things very unpleasant for both the ex-friend and ex-partner, yet she keeps stating that she's VERY HAPPY with her new life... go figure. However, she will not leave her ex-partner alone, and keeps contacting that person over and over and calling the ex-friend names and slandering that person's good name.
IMHO, there is no need for that - if they are no longer together, there is no need to keep
harassing the ex-partner and then going after the ex-friend, just because they're dating each other. I believe that if you're happy in your new life, you should be able to move on and look
forward to what the future brings you.
As for the first scenario, I believe that the past belongs in the past - and that's where it should stay. It doesn't matter if you do or don't like that person, you leave his/her relationship alone. You don't need to be contacting the new partner and telling stories, bringing up the past and all that jazz. Let them talk - they will get around to it sooner or later, or maybe never.
Now, I know I'm not perfect, but I've tried to support people in their relationships, whether I approved of it or not - I do not feel that it's necessary to 'warn' or tell the new partner of anything. It's up to them - and I mean it. It's sad, though... because I've always thought of those people who would bring up the past or tell stories as looking for attention - and not caring if they hurt anyone - because in the end, they're the ones who gets into trouble. And I mean big-time trouble.
Let me give you a true example - this actually happened to me not too long ago. Someone came up to me and wanted to know why I was talking about her behind her back - and I was confused, because I had not seen or heard from that person in a long time. I told her the truth, that I had not said anything, and it was not my place to do so. She then told me who had told her, and we both went to see that person - and of course, that story-teller nearly peed in her pants... she had not expected me to show up at her door, with the knowledge of what she had done. After a lot of hemming and hawing, she admitted that I had not said anything, and that because I was not around often, she thought it was safe to name me as the person talking about the other person.
Now, what I am pointing out here - it is not a good idea to start talking about someone - either bringing up that person's past, or telling stories, or
harassing someone else about that person. Why? It will all come back to bite you in the arse, and people will point fingers at you...and you will find yourself losing friends because of your own actions.
Think about it... if you tell someone about someone
else's past, who's gonna prevent others from telling people about YOUR past? I'm sure, and you probably know, you may have skeletons in your closet that you do not want the public to know about.
The past belongs in the past. Period. Also, remember there's ALWAYS two sides to one story - yours and your ex-partner. If you're the one who's talking, better be aware. The ex-partner has his/her own story to tell, too. And that story may be more
believable than yours - and make you look like the bad guy in the whole situation. I know this for a fact, because there's an ex out there, that is looking pretty bad, indeed. And guess what? I feel pity for that person, because it's pretty evident that the person is not able to let go of the past - and isn't able to move on.
I'm just telling you what I think, and what I can and do see.
