Dreaming

Time to Read

I'm now reading ELECTRIC BLUE, a Jane Kelly mystery by Nancy Bush... seems pretty good, but of course, I just started reading it.

posted by Missy @ 12:23 PM 0 Comments

Change of Plans

Oh yeah ~ I won't be able to take any time off after the cruise for at least six months, so that means my surgery may be delayed. *sigh*

Just gonna be a busy time ~ with regular Monsanto business, Kraft paperwork and the prep work for the URS merge.

Ugh.

posted by Missy @ 7:28 AM 0 Comments

Tub Thoughts

Hoo boy ~ got a lot done yesterday. We got most of the stuff put away and tided up a lot. All that's left to do is clean up the office area and get the printers ready. Then...we can finally vacuum the basement! We've boxed up a lot of stuff ~ we will go through each box at our leisure over the winter and clean up the storage rooms. It is sure easier having two storage areas now ~ the main part of the basement does look much bigger now.

As for Saturday, we went to my parents' home for lunch and to go over the clothes that needed alterating. Then Mom, Jens and I went to Catherine's and I was able to get some blue jeans and a few shirts ~ found one that will go well with the pants I got over eBay. It's rather daring for me, too.

Then Jens and I went to Border's for something to drink and to get some reading for the cruise. I know a couple friends are gonna want to borrow two magazines later!

That evening, cuz my knee had popped a bit and was hurting, we decided to tuck in for some TV and a bit of talking.

Likewise for last night ~ we watched our fav Sunday foodie shows ~ Food Network Challenge, Iron Chef America (Batili, yay!), Throwdown, Dinner Impossible and Ace of Cakes. We also did the laundry ~ washing and folding.

All in all, it was a pretty good weekend.

posted by Missy @ 7:26 AM 0 Comments

LOL at PeeWee!

OMG ~ I have Snoopy in the cathouse!

posted by Missy @ 9:33 PM 0 Comments

PeeWee

PeeWee seems to be doing okay after losing her long~time 'brother', BabyCat, just 2 1/2 months ago. I have been giving her a lot of attention and affectation, and she seems to be thriving on it.

I'm glad.

I was really worried about her for a while ~ she did lose a bit of weight and wasn't herself. I picked her up and stroked her, gave her lots of loving attention during her mourning.

I know she still misses BabyCat, because when she jumps on the bed to be with me, she looks around and sniffs at me before getting on me and butting my face with her head.

I'm just glad she's doing better ~ I just wish she would stop chasing Foxie and Sweetie every chance she gets!

posted by Missy @ 9:29 PM 0 Comments

What Not To Wear

Obviously I love this show ~with Stacy and Clinton. I would love to be on this show someday, but please, not til I get my legs into some kind of shape first ~ LOL!

Seriously, I just love it, the way they teach their fashion victims the styles, colors and all that jazz, and then the hair/face makeovers ~ just plain great!

I wonder how I would look after going on that show...?

posted by Missy @ 9:12 PM 0 Comments

Aauugghh

I hate these times of the month ~ most of the time I don't mind being a woman, in fact, I love being a woman ~ but NOT for 7 to 10 days with cramps, bloating, messes and full wastebaskets!

UGH, UGH, UGH!

posted by Missy @ 9:03 PM 0 Comments

Think Tub

It's almost time to get out of the tub ~ my knee is all limber from the warmth.

Hoo boy... I did get the green and living rooms all tided up last night. Tonight, I'll be going to technique night, so it's gonna be a nice break for me.

The smell from the blue room carpet is much less today ~ keeping that room aired out is helping.

I thought some more on what I wrote yesterday ~ I know it sounded like I was whining and wallowing in self-pity, but that's exactly how I was feeling and in some ways, still am. After all, thats what this blog is for - my gnashing, whining, venting, ramblings and so on. There may be an occassional glimmer of sunshine here and there ~ which suits me.

All I can say is that I'll be glad when the basement is done, the house is clean from top to bottom, the cats are well taken care of, and we're on the ship sipping a melon marquitia.

That reminds me ~ the new fall season begins next week!

posted by Missy @ 7:47 AM 0 Comments

The Juice

Sheesh... can't O.J. even stay out of the spotlight for long?

Now the news are all about him being arrested and held without bail ~ I just wish he would go *poof* into thin air. It's just too much ~ along with Britney Spears. Its been Simpson and Spears just about every day ~ I'd rather read more about Kevin Everett, who's still recovering from his spinal injury.

Come on.

posted by Missy @ 7:37 AM 1 Comments

Cats at Home

PeeWee (PW) - 11 years old

Lovable (Lovey) - 4 years old

Black Bear (Blackie) - 3 years old

Baby Angel (Angel) - 3 years old

Black Fox (Foxie) - 1 year old

Black Beauty (Sweetie) - 1 year old

Sometimes I get the cats into perfect picture opportunities when they decide to do something - like on this one time, Angel was in the little cube looking out when Lovey decided he wanted to be in the cube, too. He jumped in one hole, while Angel jumped out another hole...this was hilarious!

PW has an admirer - Blackie does follow her around quite a bit. He's rather sweet on her. On this occassion, I had just finished boxing up comics from the pink room shelves, and PW wanted to check the empty shelfcase. She had settled down...

When Blackie came into the pink room, jumped on Great-Aunt Mabel's washstand, and spied PW on the shelf...

He decided to jump on the top shelf and peer down on her, and PW saw his tail flicking back and forth...she watched his tail for a few minutes, then jumped up and swatted his tail tip! Blackie was so surprised, he jumped on the bed,then to the floor, and ran out the room. PW stepped calmly down from the shelves, and walked out the pink room with her tail up high. I was laughing so hard, I was nearly crying.

As for this picture, I was cleaning out my emails and found this picture of BabyCat on the little table in the living room, with Jens looking at me. It does show how big BabyCat was - yet, he was 12 pounds at the time he was put to sleep. He sure loved to look around, find the best spot for snoozing.

posted by Missy @ 12:45 PM 0 Comments

*sigh*

There are times when I just don't feel up to anything, when I feel freakin' lonely, when I just don't want to do anything. I call these my "gray" periods. And I can tell you, I just purely HATE these times.

No, I don't feel suicidal, and never have - so relax on that thought.

It's just how I perceive myself, what I'm supposed to do and what I'm doing instead. Most of the time I've been pigging out, vegging out, wigged out.

Just one good thing - I haven't gained any of my former weight back. Sheesh...who wants to be 417 again? And I'm concentrating on losing weight again - working slowly towards my goal again. 10 percent at a time, one pound at a time. That's the best I can do right now.

I know I have great friends - it's just that I don't feel that I want to burden them with my blue thoughts - I know many of them are going through a rough period right now, and also, some are just entering the happiest years of their lives... who wants a party pooper? However, it would be nice if I heard from them time to time - there are some that I do email almost every morning and they never respond - it makes me wonder if they really want to be my friend or that they may want me to stop emailing or talking to them... that's how I feel. I know my self-confidence isn't at its greatest - I've gone through so much shyt that it has done a real number on my self esteem and confidence, that I'm leery of letting ANYONE ever getting close to me at all... that's how hurt I've been in the past - however, I'm trying to learn how to let go and forget - and keep laughing through my days.

It would be nice, though, to hear from friends once in a while. *sigh*

I do have a few that do email me almost every day, and I always look forward to those emails - it sure makes a dent in the gray clouds.

Jens is also a bright spot in my life, and I thank the good Lord for letting her be in my life every day.

I do know I have been working on my finances, and they are improving a bit - I've let my TAC business slide back a bit until I was able to resume - some things have to be put on hold here and there until I can get my two feet back under me. And yes, I have one right foot and one left foot.

I also have been working in the house - we've cleared out the blue room - we have had problems with Angel using the carpet as her personal litter box. This coming Sunday, we have to take the bed frame down, take the baseboards out, and then pull up the damn carpet. We are gonna pitch it straight out the window. Sheesh - it stinks big time. It's possible I may have to call a professional to come look at the floor beneath the carpet for an estimate on the damage and replacement - just hoping it's going to be the northeast corner of the blue room and that's it.

I've finished cleaning and tidying up the pink room, and will do the same thing in the green and living rooms tonight. Tomorrow night is Technique Night, so it's a break for me. Then on Thursday, its back to cleaning and I'll be in the basement for that. The basement is at least 1/2 done - just need to shelve some boxes, organize the cubes and tidy up the messes around. Most of the laundry has been attacked - washed, dried, folded and put away. Just got some bedsheets and the blankets from the blue room to do.

Work is going well - although I still have trouble coming in on time every morning, I do get my work done and put away at the end of the work day. That's important to my supervisor.

As for my knee - it's holding up pretty good. I have bad days as well as good days - there are times when the pain is so bad, I just don't want to go anywhere, but I do force myself to use my knee. I know I have an appointment Oct. 22nd for the shot and then another appointment on the 14th of November to discuss surgery...ugh. There's so much to do between that day and surgery - I need to make sure everything is in order, my affairs, the house and all that jazz...

Boy - this is ending up a long post...I sure have something to say, don't I? Sad...

Anyway - there are times when I wish I didn't feel so lonely and left out by friends - I know they're busy with their own lives and I can't expect them to be there for me 24/7, but it would be nice if they could say hi and let me know what's up once in a while. Oh well.

There's so much to do - in preparation for the cruise, I've gotten some new dresses, a pair of dress pants. I'm going shopping with my mother this Saturday for new blue jeans and hopefully a good pair of walking/cross training shoes. I also plan to bring the new clothes to her for her opinion, and to get some of them hemmed. I'm still looking for a good girdle - the one I have is ready to give up the seams from so many years of holding my hips in.

Jens is so excited about the cruise, yet she's nervous, too. It's her very first cruise... and my 2nd. I'm just looking forward to relaxing in the sunshine next to the pool. I plan to take my latest Harry Potter novel with me for those stolen hours...heh heh. That's my reward for being soooo patient!

Am reading HIGH HEELS ARE MURDER, by Elaine Viets. She's a former columnist from the St. Louis Post-Dispatch and now writes mysteries based in St. Louis, MO.

I was just thinking - and now I've forgotten what I was thinking about!!! Oh well, it may come back to me, and then, it may not.

I got these for my birthday - these are the only dark chocolates I like - Scharffen Berger.

http://www.artisanconfection.com/stores/scharffenberger/

Otherwise, give me Hershey's Milk Chocolate Kisses!!!

I guess I'm going to close this post up - I want to change the topic on the next post.

posted by Missy @ 11:35 AM 0 Comments

Bored

Been bored at work - all time reports are on hold at this time. August 31st was the last day of the Monsanto fiscal year, so I was really busy getting time reports into the SAP system. Now I gotta wait til tomorrow to see if I can start entering into SAP or not - sometimes it's allowable, sometimes it takes a bit longer.

Anyway - I went to see the doctor August 30th - he doubled my antidepressant dosage - we will see how it works out in the long run, but so far the world doesn't seem so gray anymore. Also, I had to have a full blood panel - the technician took four vials of blood from my arm Tuesday...urgh. I'm surprised I'm still walking around. I didn't even turn into a vampire. *snaps fingers* Gosh darn...it.

Jens and I met up with my parents at P.F. Chang's last Saturday evening for dinner - delicious food, I can tell ya. I got the wok charred beef with brown rice, and Jens got the sweet and sour chicken with white rice. Then we went to my parents' home for cake and presents - I got some really neat presents, along with a shopping trip! Mom gave me most of the chocolate bundt cake to take home... suffice to tell you, it's probably all gone now. When we got home, we watched Blades of Glory with Will Ferrell. Very funny movie!

Sunday, we worked in the basement - I got the small area tided up and into a functional storage area now, as Jens had to leave to go pick Lisa D up - Lisa was begging to come over for the night... so we obliged. That night, we went to Culpepper's - it's okay, but not a restaurant I would choose. It's more of an eh... restuarant.

Monday - Labor Day - we dropped Lisa D off at the airport Metrolink station, and went on to Jens' parents' home for lunch. Her St. Louis family was there, also. We had a great lunch and talked a bit - then Jens and I toddled on our way home. I had to do the ironing, and then we watched some television... just killing time.

I am reading DREAMCATCHER by Stephen King - almost through with the book.

I wonder what I'm gonna be up to ... soon.

posted by Missy @ 1:55 PM 0 Comments