Sad
Im feeling sad tonight - I tried to help three good friends and I know I failed them all miserably. Ive been crying and have had too much to eat. Right now I'm feeling that I shouldn't have friends at all, because I'm just gonna fail them sooner or later. I will understand if those three do not want any further contact with me after today.
I know I'm just tired and in a lot of pain, and I'm tired of feeling that I can't do much anymore - and also I'm beginning to have shortness of breath now, and it happens more and more often, which scares me a lot.
Damn. I'm crying, which I haven't done for quite a while.
I feel like one big fat failure tonight - and I hate saying that negative statment, which I know doesn't do me any good.
I have to think positive, but it's really hard for me right now.
WOW!!!
Look at the picture above and you can see where this guy broke through the guardrail, right side where the people are standing on the road (pointing). The pick-up was traveling from right to left when it crashed through the guardrail. It flipped end-over-end, across the culvert outlet, and landed right side up on the left side of the culvert, facing the opposite direction from which he was travelilng.
Now look at the 2ND picture below...
If this guy didn't believe in God before, do you suppose he believes now?
Downline Meeting
I went to Longhorn Steakhouse to meet up with my upline and her downlines - had a nice meeting, a nice chat. I was given two handmade Easter baskets... cute! I only had a mozzarella and tomato salad and two skewers of grilled shrimp.
I even had a NSV - the shrimp came with french fries and I didn't have any! I just moved them to another plate, put a lettuce leaf over them, and then told the waitress to take that plate away.
Yay for me!
Girls Scrapbook Night
March 8, 2008 was the scrapbooking crop night for us - the usual gang of stooges. I was able to finish the cat brag book and get started on some other things. Jens arrived a bit late, and talked to us while we did some work and yakked... and had pizza from Roma's, which was good! I still prefer Imo's, sorry! Heh heh.
This is Jenifer's stamp room - which I would love to have!!! Have to wait, though. Not enough room at this time. Just gotta be patient... but for how long? LOL!!!
Frozen in Grand Central Station
Girl Scouts Thin Mints
I am totally addicted to these Thin Mints from Girl Scouts - they are soooo decadent! I just love the taste and texture of these cookies... heaven on earth!
Every year, I promise myself I won't buy any, and yet, every year, I get several boxes of Thin Mints along with Trefoils, Do-Si-Dos and Tag-a-longs (Jens' favorite).
Right now, I have two boxes of Thin Mints left, and I am kinda worried about my willpower - and Lisa's, too, as she admits that these are her favorites. I was thinking of what to do with these - and I think the only option I have is to freeze them in several layers of wax paper, and put them in the back of the freezer. It's worked for me in the past, to an extent, as long as I make myself 'blonde' and forget about them.
I have decided that it's not going to be possible to pass them up when they go on sale every year, but get a limited number of boxes, and then freeze immediately.
A Plea
Watching the Biggest Loser last night, and seeing Bernie asking his family and friends to help him, made me realize that I haven't done so. I have not been keeping up with my journals and blog, haven't made a serious effort to get back on track.
Now I'm asking you, my family and friends, please help me. Remind me to write what I eat in my food journal, write how I feel in my daily journal.
Help me make better choices, give me positive support even when I rebel ~ it's gonna take a while, and it will be a lifelong struggle, as I'm a recovering obesity sufferer with more weight to lose. Please be patient with me, and above all, don't give up on me.
I really need your help.
3/5/2008 Affirmations
NSV: had a good dinner.
Blessing: my drive home was smoother and faster today than it was last night.
